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Fenimore ([personal profile] blessingone) wrote2011-01-26 12:22 am

[ voice/action ] please not now

[It takes Fenimore some time to reach for her journal after they find Shirley missing. But, eventually, she drags herself over and opens it. It's no small matter for Shirley to have made friends in Luceti -- the girl had spent her first fifteen years friendless. She can't just leave that alone. But, even once she opens it, there's silence for a full minute. When she sighs and begins speaking, her voice is calm, though this is by willpower alone.]

For anyone who cares -- [While it's intended as a general "to who it may concern," the slightly bitter edge that creeps in at the end sounds accusatory. She knows it isn't fair and regrets the unintentional addition, but she has belligerence against the world to spare today. When she continues, her tone is flat again.] ...Shirley has gone...home....

[She trails off. The voice doesn't sound like her own. In fact, the entire entry sounds -- and, by the camera, looks -- as though it were made by someone else. Except for the tone, it sounds as though.... She slowly reaches up to touch a braid hanging from the side of her head.

Shirley's voice continues, quiet and strained:]
Oh, that isn't fair.... [Using Shirley's hands, she closes her journal and cuts off the feed.

She doesn't want to meet any of the others like this. Not now. Even though she knows that Stella is out of the house, chances of running into her accidentally seem small enough to risk it. In any case, getting away from the house seems pretty attractive right now. She doesn't have to change, thankfully -- they're close enough in size that her clothes just feel a little loose in places. Though of course, on her way out, she does have to stop to grab some things for the cold weather.

Her intent was to avoid people entirely, but she stops at the river next to house 34, by the bridge. That's where she had found Shirley after Senel had left. Shirley had acted strong, no matter how much it had bothered her. "Acting"...but, if she thought about it, being able to act that strong was strong in itself.

She can be found sitting with her arms around her knees on the bank, north from the bridge and away from the pathway -- this time, it's far too cold to even wade, whether or not ice impedes that. She hopes that she's out of sight, and it might have been hard to accidentally catch sight of her were she not wearing a hat that stood out against the snow.

It's still a stupid hat. It doesn't even keep her ears warm.]


[Backdated to during the day! Comments will be answered by [livejournal.com profile] blessingone. Journal comments will be answered with an in-Luceti-time delay and, if she doesn't have anything to say, might not be answered at all (apologies if you get hit with the last one). Action ones she doesn't really have a choice on -- she might be a little unfriendly, but she's not upset enough to cut someone off completely.]

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
[She was about to protest, but she's momentarily sidetracked by:] Meat preparation?

[identity profile] swordsandfans.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, what about it?
drawnbythesword: (I see a brighter tomorrow!)

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[personal profile] drawnbythesword 2011-01-29 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
It sounds like she was a pretty dear friend of yours. I'd say you're the lucky one.

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
That doesn't sound like it has much to do with -- [But, then again, smithing is probably only tangentially related, too. She shakes her head.]

I can't do it. I -- [When she thinks of learning to fight, she first thinks of large-scale battles rather than just plain self-defence. And what she's seen of battles scares her.] I just can't.

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[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[She looks down.] ...Yeah. I was. But I didn't appreciate it enough.

[identity profile] swordsandfans.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Really? I didn't know you were vegetarian.

[He's uh, kind of stuck on the meat thing for the momen.]

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[EPIC FACEPALM. Even if that was kind of her own fault. On the bright side, this is certainly distracting her from feeling down about Shirley right now.]

I wasn't talking about -- I'm just fine with preparing meat!

[identity profile] swordsandfans.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 11:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[Sokka is just a pro at this.]

Oh... oh! You meant with- yeah. No no, you can totally do it. [Because clearly all Fenimore needs is CONFIDENCE.]
drawnbythesword: (I really don't get it.)

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[personal profile] drawnbythesword 2011-01-29 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Her friendship meant a lot to you, didn't it?

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Do you really think it's that easy? I'm not like you, Sokka -- or Adell, or Suki -- any of you! [Seriously, dude, half of Luceti is, like, armed to the teeth.] If I went out on a battlefield...even if I tried to learn to fight, the only thing that would happen is I'd be killed.

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[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-29 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It does. ...I owe her so much, but I pretended that it was me doing the favour for her.
drawnbythesword: (Give me a moment to think this through.)

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[personal profile] drawnbythesword 2011-01-30 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
...Different people show how they care in different ways. I'm sure she could see your true intentions.

[identity profile] swordsandfans.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He should probably drop it. He always does in the end. But for the moment?]

It doesn't have to be a battlefield! Not everyone learns expecting to go to war. Maybe it's in case somebody tries to attack you in the dark, or you're protecting your home, or maybe you're in a bar and someone makes a comment about your sister - or you want to run off on your own because everyone else is using fancy teleporters.

[Is there more to say? Probably, but he shrugs a bit and casts his attention to the water.]

But hey, it's fine. It just means if someone says something about your sister, I'll have to beat them up for you.

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[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
You aren't sure. You've never even met me.

[identity profile] antiexpression.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
Well, the goodbye is for your sake. Next time you see her it'll be a hello.

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
[...Oh. That is also a possibility. She feels a bit embarrassed for having reacted like that. But maybe he won't notice that she's implied any sort of weakness is she acts naturally.]

Then why would I have to waste my time learning it if you'll do it for me?

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
[He does have a point, even if she doesn't admit it out loud. She looks away.] It's not like she'll be able to say anything back even if I do.
drawnbythesword: (I really don't get it.)

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[personal profile] drawnbythesword 2011-01-30 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't, no... I have no way of knowing if I'm right or not. That's just the feeling I get from the bond you have with her.

[identity profile] swordsandfans.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
[None was noticed, really. Just the usual reluctance. But he offers a teasing grin.]

Have you seen my schedule? Just because I'll do it, doesn't mean I'll be timely about it!

[identity profile] antiexpression.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
[........]

You know... When you make a friend, a link forms between you. The stronger the friendship, the stronger the link.

[he folds his arm on the deck rail.] Very strong links are unbreakable. Even when the other half is somewhere else.

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[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
You're just saying that to make me feel better. [It is working, though. A little.]
drawnbythesword: (I'll protect you... I swear.)

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[personal profile] drawnbythesword 2011-01-30 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
No... I sincerely mean that.

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
I'd make you find time. [Somehow. She's not smiling, but her expression is certainly lighter than it had been.]

[identity profile] swordsandfans.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
Hate to break it to you, but you aren't Suki and you don't look like her. [He points to self] So you'll just have to wait like everyone else.

[identity profile] blessingone.livejournal.com 2011-01-30 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
[She averts her face even farther, muttering into her knees.] You're just saying that....

[But, from the tone of her voice, it's pretty clear that the words meant a lot to her and it's just the tsun talking. It actually touched her and was even a little comforting, but, at the same time, it also made her feel a little like crying -- it's a complicated feeling. She didn't want to look at him in case any of it showed on her face.]

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